Enlightenment Destroys Mindfulness

There is a saying from Tibetan Tantra that mindfulness must be kept always.  Until, it is said, enlightenment comes to demolish your mindfulness, one must keep watch always over the tendencies, habits, and impurities of mind. 
Mindfulness and vigilance lead to the spontaneous awakening of our true nature from its nap of self.  When the nap ends, like cold water on your face, there's no need to keep dreaming mindfulness any longer. Is that to say that mindfulness doesn't happen?  No~
It simply means an end to the identity which was being mindful, an end to the self that was watching...at that point of speaking your whole life is mindfulness, which is to say enlightenment is your life.
Does that mean everything is pleasurable? No~
It simply means you're not napping anymore, you've woken up...then the responsibility of living what you really are begins to annoy you.  It annoys you until you really can't take it anymore, then you wake up deeper.  Over and over and over....now, now, now.

Mindfulness can be fancy, can be hard, can be a pleasure, but when the monster of enlightenment comes to eat you up, you are swallowed up whole--mindful or not. 
At this point the ego has the opportunity to try to enlighten itself which is called egomania, which results in intellectual enlightenment and actual delusion.  Or, ego has the opportunity to go along with the whole thing, which can be extraordinarily painful, but completely fresh and awake.  It's really up to how much you're willing to quit indulging fear and hope.
When fear and hope are gone, enlightenment is just being natural.  With no hope and no fear you manifest mindfulness spontaneously, somewhat wildly~
When the nap of our delusion is cut, we don't really need an alarm clock anymore, just a warm cup of tea and a dreadful smile.

There is a Place We Go Together

There is a Place,
we go together.
There, we are complete before each other.
There, you disappear,
and I vanish.
All that's left of us is This~

Your petty stories,
and my ridiculous ideas
get transmuted here,
where there is only the nectar of Truth.

Come on, don't play dumb~
We've been here all along,
Now, we're just opening our eyes.

Tantra

Tantra teaches us to relate tho things as they are.  It teaches us to relate to all of life from the awakened state.  The true view of Tantra sees that there is nothing but the Divine in all things, and the teaching is to relate to everything as Divinity.  It is relating to pleasure, and relating to pain in their most basic, real, original way.  Tantra is challenging in that includes an ever-expanding view of reality, and yet remains intimately aware of the unchanging, formless ground that is eternal reality.  It neither hides out in the transcendent realms, nor is it just a puppet to worldly existence,--it is awake, vibrantly lucid and clear and undisturbed. 
Tantra isn't a philosophy or belief system, it is to relate directly to your experience in a way that is wholehearted, complete, and total.  It doesn't solve our problems for us, if anything it gives us more to deal with in that we don't have any spiritual escape from life.  Tantra has as its basis sanity,  reality, and truth.  It seeks to annhilate spiritual misunderstanding,  it seeks to eradicate loftiness, it seeks to turn our attention toward everything. 
Tantra is simply being involved in life, not just practically, or efficiently, or cunningly, but wholly and entirely.  In Tantra, we have no place to go, nothing to achieve, nothing to realize..Life itself becomes the whole message being related all the time.  Relating to life is what most of us have not yet begun to do because we're still trying to figure out what it means to be spiritual, Tantra teaches us that being spiritual is being touched by life as it appears.  It is no escape, no comfort, no reliable philosophy.  It is the removal of any addition to the already perfect stream of life.  With nothing in the way, we have the true freedom to cry, to explode, and to dance.

Take a Look Around

Our thoughts are so often just a product of our past, or on some concern for the future, that we need to stop and take a look around for a moment.  If we just simply take a look around we would find two very interesting things going on~ On one hand, none of our thoughts are actually happening, and on the the other hand there's a lot more mystery unfolding than we might have imagined. 
To realize that none of the content of our thinking is actually taking place is a great liberation because we don't have to be conditioned and controlled by the past and fears of the future.
To realize that there's a great mystery unfolding before us is a great thrill to our system, and we see that there is a wholeness that always here... even when our thoughts are dwelling in some fearful or excited state there is a reality present in and around us that has nothing to do with our thoughts.
The challenging moment is the one where we have the willingness to stop and take a look around, when everything in our being is telling us to worry, fight, escape, hate, defend.... the willingness itself is a courage and power to transcend our tiny modes of consciousness and open to the vast experience that's happening all around us in, as Kabir writes, "in the tiniest house of time". 

The Dark Night of Experience

There is a dark side to experience
that only the Truth can survive
It will come like Armageddon
and leave Spring in its wake
In the midst of the storm of torment and hell,
there is a most intimate peace~

Very likely we are not going to bump into our true nature and never again have a moment of suffering or delusion or struggle.  Consciousness requires the 'dark night of the soul' in order to transform our illusions by putting a great pressure on us to come into harmony with life itself.  If we can begin to see these 'dark nights' as inclusive within our awakening rather than as obstacles a shift begins to happen where we give up our fight with darkness, and darkness can begin to illuminate our experience.

Stop!

Stop!
Don't look inside,
don't look outside.
Stop all your movement for one moment
and be still.
Tell me then, who are you?
And where have all your problems gone?

The Adoration of All

If you are to truly know the fullest extent of what it means to be awake, you must yearn to adore everything.  It is only then that we begin to see with our true eyes.  The Divine has distaste for nothing, not even the most hideous situations.  Now, our adoration doesn't mean that we are passive, complacent smiling faces, if anything our adoration moves us to serve others, to serve life, to get our hands very dirty. 
The willingness to adore things just as they are is an indispensable quality of the Real.  To adore even what we dislike, even what we may hate, is to see beyond the limitations of our limited two eyes- beyond the limitations of our imperfect perceptions. 
True adoration comes from a place deeper than emotion and thought, from a place that's untainted by our biases and opinions.  This is self-transcendence, this is realizing the emptiness of phenomena, this is seeing perfection amidst imperfection. 
As we deepen in our realization of the All, adoration becomes natural and effortless.  When that adoration penetrates to the depths, we are left deeply grateful for it all.

Don't Know!

When you don't know that you don't know
     that is ignorance
When you know that you don't know
     that is enlightenment
When you know that you know
     that is delusion
When you don't know that you know
     that is gate gate paragate....

Only Stillness is Reliable

If we really want reliable answers to our spiritual questions, there is only one truly reliable answer and it is the silence at the core of our being.  All other answers come and go, apply and don't apply, work and don't work...but Stillness is the one answer than never wanes.  Thing is, it doesn't satisfy our longing to know, it simply frees up the questions, it simply relieves us of our need to know.
If we look deeply, Stillness is already present behind every question, just waiting for the question to vanish so the Silent Answer may be heard.  We obsess over questions that we think need answers, and when we come to see that all answers are at best partial, that only Silence is reliable, it is then that the true answer from the core of our own being is heard.  Not only is it heard, it resounds!

Eat the Fruit Offered to You

Most of our suffering comes from trying to eat of a fruit that has not been offered to us. More often than not our struggles come from wanting things to be other than they are.  Life has this way of reaching out its hand with an apple and saying 'here'...and in our best two year old voice we say 'no, I want an orange'.  And from our desire to have an orange we'll wage war on the apple, the hand, and the one behind the hand.  If we would just stop, open our hand, taste the apple, we'd see that what we really wanted was an apple.  Instead we spend countless hours, days, years, and spiritual practices demanding an orange until one day we get it-but its not at all what we wanted.  Life always knows better than we ourselves do, and it always gives us what we need most, whether that's a little joy or a little suffering.... Until the day comes when we may find our hands forever turned open to whatever fruit is offered.

Mind is God

After having met enough questions, and seen all the ways that our thinking tries to capture the Absolute nature of our being, I have also realized that very subtly I have seen people get the  message "mind is the enemy".   Let's put the mind at ease~ The mind is not an enemy, thoughts are no enemy, there is indeed no enemy.  If we look very deeply we will see that everything is God....mind is God, body is God, thoughts are God, good feelings are God, bad feelings are God.  If we are going to speak with any degree of clarity we must begin with ALL IS GOD. 

Mountainous Vulnerability

In our culture, vulnerability seems to mean something between weak and pathetic.  And because of our spiritual situation that is a somewhat necessary thing in that we have spent so much energy trying to be invulnerable and invincible that to experience our groundless wide open nature feels very threatening to our sense of self and its sense of security.  Most people are completely unwilling to ever be that naked, that exposed, that seen...but for those rare beings who have had the courage and wisdom to live totally naked and totally groundlessly there is a solid mountainous quality to their being.
It's like being around somebody who has no fear, no reservations, no protection, and willing to be a total fool- a total idiot.  The rich quality of warmth and absolute confidence seem to come through the pores of such a one. The irony is that that mountainous sanity comes from being so deeply intimate with your own groundlessness... if you have nowhere to position yourself, where can you be knocked down?  By having no ground, no identity there's no you...when there's no you, who is it that is going to be harmed?
What seems so vulnerable, so threatened within us is the very thing that at the core is unshakable and indestructible in us.  It simply takes the willingness and humility to have all our ego notions crushed, to have all our ground taken away in order to see that what lies deeply within that vaporous fear is solid existence, Reality itself.