Blown Wide Open

The phrase "blew my mind" is such an accurate  description of what occurs when you see who you truly are.  What is most immediate about an experience of Truth or God is that you recognize that your mind isn't capable of containing that Presence.  You realize that what you're experiencing in that very moment is the Totality of Everything everywhere.  The mind, being this little device revolving around 'me' is never gonna get it...the mind is never going to wrap its understanding around the Infinite.  Being blown wide open is to have your mind humbled by the vastness of what you are.
For many of us that can be quite a terrifying ordeal because we are so accustomed to being able to understand, relate, and conceptualize our world.  Just the slightest kiss of Reality shows you that that's all a big joke.  It shows you that what you have held yourself together as is merely an image on the surface of an ocean that is endless. 
The ocean that is our own Self is constantly inviting our lives to be blown wide open, but it is our attempt to always put a lid on things and keep them manageable that we avoid this 'being blown wide open'.  It may also be that we at some time had this little kiss and because it was so big and huge and held so much energy we're simply not willing to look.
It is very useful to see what prevents your life from being blown open, or what keeps your life from falling apart.  It is often the case that what keeps your life from falling apart is the very thing that keeps life feeling fragile, broken, and full of innumerable sufferings.  It is not that I, or Life, or the Divine wants your destruction or to blow you up.  It is simply that when we hold an idea, image, or belief about what we are, that little 'me' is going to have to be seen through at some point or other because it is ultimately unreal.  The Real will eventually erode, blow up, or simply reveal Itself to Itself and make this illusion of who we think we are totally transparent.
Spiritual Awakening is just a possibility to light the fuse, close your eyes, and say good-bye.
Then, you see that you haven't gone anywhere, nor could you go anywhere.
You are Here.